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February 28th, 2026
Why holo friends back at it again with more nonsense, i can't believe it'll be March tomorrow time seems to be going so fast but also incredibly slow sometimes. I think i'm remebering to slow down and just let the time past in a more mindful way. I catch myself staring at the night sky more again looking at the stars, talking to the moon, secretly wanting a telescope like i've always wanted. Space is so cool but so incredibly terrifying, sure the stars and planets are cool until you try to land on jupiter and get disintegrated instantly. I've gotten back into journaling again, i have a weird relationship with journaling it's one of my favorite cozy hobbies/creative outlets and but it's so tiring to do. Which is silly to think about but hey, it might just be a me thing. Manga is slowly taking back over my life just like it did when i was 13 and wanted to read the entirety of girl got game in one sitting! Oh how i miss the days when i could just simply fuck around all day and do cozy hobbies and play video games. I've realized recently i have this sudden revelation that i want to become disgusting educated, and you might be asking what does that mean? For me it means to read more books that actually teach me something this year (the goal is 5), and go to some sort of in person lecture on a topic i'm interested in or want to be interested in. I'm so grateful to be alive somedays, i feel a renewed sense of hope, it could just be the weather getting warmer so the seasonal depression isn't kicking me in the knees everyday anymore or maybe everything is finally working out. :)
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February 3rd, 2026
First off wasn't it january 1st yesterday? What is happening to the time? It can't just be me right? Life is so weird, one day you feel the whole weight of seasonal depression fully take over and the next your back on top, i don't think it'll ever make sense and honestly i think i'm okay with that. The moon is so beautiful tonight and life is good, i've been trying to thank the universe for everything i have as of recently, i talk to "the universe" all the time thse days. I believe in energy and vibes and if you stay positive and keep going it really does get better as much as i don't want to be that guy. I saw iron lung tonight and it was crazy amazing, if you have a chance go see it! I'm trying to listen to more music this year and read more books and learn more things through digital gardening, i think i just want to have an adventurous year.